Happy 1st Birthday, Lucca!

HOW IS MY BABY ONE YEAR OLD? These past weeks have flown by as I have slightly dreaded Lucca turning one year old.  Of course, I want him to grow and am beyond grateful for his life.  However, his time as a baby is moving way too swiftly for my liking.  As a typical new... Continue Reading →

Think Twice Before Saying These Things To Mothers

Being a mother is one of the most difficult jobs in the world.  Whether you have one child or six little ones, it is demanding, exhausting, rewarding, and life-changing.  Each child has their own personality, and part of your job is discovering theirs while providing what he or she needs.  Motherhood is not for the... Continue Reading →

Putting Value in The Self

Our society, very unfortunately, puts a lot of pressure and focus on outer appearances.  We are told by companies and advertisements to lose weight, change our hair, buy these pants, use this makeup, and on and on and on.  Basically, we are told we are not enough.  It is untrue, and frankly, exhausting. We are... Continue Reading →

A call for Christians to be more ‘Christ-like’

As someone who identifies with Christianity, I have become increasingly triggered as of lately. There are everyday people, public figures, leaders in the community and country, and all over social media who claim to be Christian, but are forgetting what the whole religion is based upon.  This religion, and the associated beliefs, is centered around... Continue Reading →

How Cloth Diapering is going

Years before we found out we were pregnant, I envisioned using cloth diapers for my babies.  Once I became pregnant, I decided to begin with disposable diapers until the baby's BMs got more solid and less frequent - easier and less to clean.  So about 4 months into motherhood, we were full fledge cloth diapering. ... Continue Reading →

6 months of motherhood

I cannot believe my baby is half a year old!  He seems so big, and has grown so much... but he's still a baby.  Thank God! Babies are my favorite; infant age is my favorite phase but it has been much harder with my own child.  I never expected being a mother would be simple,... Continue Reading →

Then and now, same, but different

Hey there! I know I have not been posting regularly (due to that mom life), but if this blog is helping me work through feelings and share my experiences, it has to be a priority. To see where I am, it's interesting to go back through older posts to see where I've been.   I... Continue Reading →

New Moon Monday crazies

Goodness gracious. Sunday night was the new moon, and apparently I thought it was a good time to adjust Lucca's sleeping routines.  We bed share, and even though it is controversial, it works for us.  We do it as safe as possible, and I do not see it as an issue.  What needs to change... Continue Reading →

Honoring your time and yourself

There are days in all our lives when we feel run down, spread too thin, lost, without purpose, or just tired.  I become tired often, so often it is as though I live in a perpetual state of tiredness.  During these times or days or maybe weeks, it is common to question personal decisions.  I... Continue Reading →

Flashback through Pregnancy

I shared a lot of my pregnancy journey through blog entries and on my Instagram page, but here are a few photos to highlight the time while baby bear was in my belly!  It all goes by so fast; life is fleeting . . .    

Breastfeeding love

Some people are weird about breastfeeding, especially in public.  I believe I was even raised to think the same thing, it should be in private.  Did you know it is much more accepted in Europe and Africa?  Most people don't give it a second thought if they spot you nursing your child on a park... Continue Reading →

The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

Being a mother is never easy.  Even when days, or more likely moments of the day, run smoothly, there is always a chance of that changing.  Here are a few truths I have learned with my three- month old boy:   The Good Lucca naps lying on my chest, and I have just gotten used... Continue Reading →

Postpartum Yoga + Life

Nothing could prepare me for motherhood or a postpartum yoga practice.  People warned me, but motherhood is something no one really understands until it's experienced on a personal level (like many life phases).  I was told numerous times how hard, wonderful, and tiring having a baby would be.  I was prepared as much as possible... Continue Reading →

Lucca’s Birth Story

It has taken me quite a while to write this story.  Nothing went as I planned (even though I was open-minded), and I think I have been feeling slightly guilty and embarrassed since I gave birth.  Lucca arrived perfectly, and all is well now.  But I am still not content in how it all happened,... Continue Reading →

How diverse is your diet?

I just finished up watching Queer Eye, and it really inspired me to get in the kitchen!  Antony (the chef) and I would be best friends if he knew me!  He would probably be annoyed with my veganism and allergies, but love me as a person.  Or that is what I'm telling myself!  Anyway, I... Continue Reading →

Am I the Problem?

We all question ourselves and our abilities.  Am I doing a good job? Am I doing this wrong?  What can I do better?  Am I the problem?   The first night home from the hospital, I was a mess.  Mainly due to the fact I slept 2-3 hours a day for our 3 day stay... Continue Reading →

A heart of gratitude

A few nights ago: Sitting quietly, watching The Office (what else), enjoying a beer, and being so thankful. We have gotten into a routine, and I think it helps baby bear.  Each night at 8:30, Lucca gets a bath or showers with me, pajamas, big bottle of breastmilk from Papa, snuggles, and falls asleep on... Continue Reading →

Acceptance

Ther other day I listened to a webinar that really resonated with me. One of the topics was body positivity versus acceptance and reality.  What one of the women said spoke directly to me.  Here is what I took from the conversation... We don't have to LOVE our flaws, we just have to find PEACE... Continue Reading →

Dearest Lucca

Dearest Lucca,   You coming into our lives has been a gift. You try my patience as you teach me infinite love. You worry me with your crying while you warm my heart with snuggles. You have stolen sleep from my nights, but I get to watch you sleep and make precious breathing sounds. You... Continue Reading →

Help! I need somebody!

Help!  Not just anybody. It is SO hard for me to ask for help. One of my go-to themes in my personal yoga practice and classes is surrender.  To let go.  It is exactly what I need to work on now and is becoming increasingly more difficult.  Having control makes me feel organized, put together. ... Continue Reading →

Rough day

It has been a day. Prepare for some candid, colorful language... Holy shit, motherhood is hard.  My sweet baby and I drove to Springville (about 30 minutes away) and back this morning.  He cried loudly at least 85% of the drives.  Today was one of those days he hated the car.  I have listened to... Continue Reading →

5 reminders for mamas

With a 2 month old, a working husband, a puppy, two kitties, yoga classes to teach, and a house to take care of, life tends to become a little hectic.  Days might run together and I can feel as though nothing has been accomplished.  What is important to remember: if the baby is well fed,... Continue Reading →

Crazy mom alert!

I have been HIGHLY frustrated recently.  Being a new mom is no joke.  I am aware of my insanity, but I cannot seem to let it go... I think the mama bear in me is roaring.   I am tired. Tired of people hovering over MY baby.  Tired of people calling my baby their baby. ... Continue Reading →

From a mother of an infant

On any given day, I will have breastmilk spilled on me.  And a boob out.  Maybe both.  Sometimes I forget... I may also forget I have to pee because I can't set him down.  Or I put him in a wrap, and we go together. There isn't much time to answer texts or have a... Continue Reading →

Welcome to Mamahood!

Our baby is one month old. A lot of people say they cannot remember the time before the baby was born, but I definitely do.  I remember sleeping a lot during my pregnancy, because I thought I was tired then.  Now, I am consumed with everything baby.  And I honestly, truly wouldn't have it any... Continue Reading →

Pregnant is Beautiful

It seems our society cares so much about artificial beauty, and it becomes difficult to see the beauty within ourselves because of the outward influences. But pregnancy has made me feel beautiful. Really beautiful. After years and years of distorted body image and eating disorders, I never really felt worthy of positive attention or comfortable... Continue Reading →

33-40 weeks pregnant

First of all, HAPPY DUE DATE TO BABY BEAR!!!!!!!!! Even though I have been blogging about my pregnancy for 4 weeks at a time, these last many weeks will be clumped into one post. Many pregnant women say the second trimester is the most enjoyable, the first being difficult because of morning sickness and the... Continue Reading →

Uncertainties of Motherhood

The other night, I let it all come in... The fear, anxiety, uncertainty, nervousness, and lack of control. All I have ever known is that I want to be a mom.  I have a natural adoration for little ones, especially babies, and am honestly really good at caring for them. But not knowing when baby... Continue Reading →

A love note to Baby Bear.

My little baby bear, I promise to let you dream. Big, wild, magical dreams. I vow to protect you, but let you think and grow on your own. I will always hug you and tell you how much I love you. I vow to teach you about compassion, tolerance, ahimsa, and enjoying the simple things... Continue Reading →

Birth Plan

Experts now recommend that pregnant mothers and their birthing coach make up a "birth plan" and let their team know.  The purpose is to make the mother and her supporters feel more comfortable about labor and delivery and have a little guide of what to expect. And so.  I will begin to create my birth... Continue Reading →

25-28 weeks pregnant

Pregnancy has really humbled me.   I feel like I say and think this all the time.  Every day, and every week, there is something new going on.  As much as I have enjoyed pregnancy and want to be pregnant forever, I know that feeling is fleeting. At 25 weeks, Baby Bear was growing right... Continue Reading →

2018 Intentions

One thing I learned in Yoga Teacher Training was that mid-winter (New Year's) is not the most logical time to set demanding Resolutions.  During this time of year, we are wanting to relax, stay warm inside, and indulge in yummy holiday treats.  While it is important to WANT to improve our lives, it is also... Continue Reading →

21-24 weeks pregnant

Now THIS is pregnancy!  There is no more wondering if a little baby is growing in my belly.  A few weeks ago, I began to feel the baby moving, and it was simply magic.  At 24 weeks, the baby moves all the time, and my husband can finally feel it when he touches baby's home!... Continue Reading →

17-20 weeks pregnant

I'm not even sure if you all read my pregnancy blogs, but I continue to write them for those of you that might be familiar or curious.  Also, I share these to remind myself what a wild ride pregnancy is! For the 17-20th weeks of pregnancy, I felt so much better!  I had more energy... Continue Reading →

Men will never understand

Men and women are significantly different, and that is what makes the world go around.  However, there are some things women will never know about men, and many things men will never understand about women and their bodies. Through my pregnancy, I have experienced more emotions than I have since my eating disorder episodes or... Continue Reading →

13-16 weeks pregnant

Welcome to the second trimester!  Apparently this is the most pleasant trimester, and that makes me very excited. Fatigue My fatigue has lessened, finally!  Some days I am FULL of energy and almost forget about my pregnancy.  If I do not sleep well at night, though, I will without a doubt need a pretty decent... Continue Reading →

9-12 weeks pregnant

The nausea has gotten much, much better!  Thank you, God!  Nausea only creeps up at night, and is not nearly as extreme as it was in the second month.  I still am very fatigued, but that is part of pregnancy.  I'm okay with the tiredness and think I have gotten used to it and being... Continue Reading →

5-8 weeks

After we found out that I am pregnant, I told most of my closest friends and family.  It is SO DIFFICULT for me to keep a secret like this!  My dream in life has always been to be a mommy, and now everything was falling into place.  John, my sweet husband, has been taking care... Continue Reading →

4 weeks (7.25.17)

THERE IS A BABY IN MY BELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I thought I was pregnant; I didn't feel different or anything, but I kept having these real thoughts.  Monday after I taught class, I went by the store to pick up a pregnancy test.  On the phone with my best friend, we talked about our current ongoings.  I... Continue Reading →

Pre-Pre-Pregancy Reading

Reading is one of my favorite hobbies!  Since we have moved and still have much work left to do on our new home, I have not had much time to devote to diving into a story.  My father-in-law bought a Sea-Doo the other day, and we have been out on the river playing as much... Continue Reading →

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